Nicky Neon | kid˚MANDU

Hi ~

i’m Nicky.

i am a Shaman. and i make Sacred Documents from within my Life Container: haiku, illustration, film, deep ass conversation. if i felt called to express myself in a particular way, I always whole-heartedly gave it an honest go.

however, my first life was also filled with many challenges from complex ptsd and chronic illness to growing up poor as a puerto rican korean queer Kid˚ in a small hood somewhere in queens, nyc. my life would often start and stop with each new challenge. i never really got where i was going because of the stops.

as i grew up, i struggled to root into my own life, running from America to Korea to America to Korea to America throughout my 20s. i was always searching for answers outside of my Self.

i’ve walked many lives, and i have grieved many deaths. and i have lived in the space between spaces, hidden in plain sight, most of all… from my Self.

Psychedelics had the most profound effect on my well-being. they have changed my life, they have saved my life.

i’m still on my healing journey, but i know who I am now. i am F R e  E ~

i move slowly and w/ intention, my heart is huge and i honor the deep feelings that come with it.

my Art reflects the stories of My Life – carrots w/ ancient wisdom (and faces), kaiju-sized spirit guardians w/ flowers growing out of their backs, small white cats in the vastness of post rain desert skies. i have always been in service of Stories – our first way of relating to one another. even before we could speak, We Painted Picture Stories to create context for our own existing within this Realm.

while it was often difficult for me to get what i truly needed from my family of origin, i now understand what it took for them to try anyway. no one is given the tools to truly thrive as Empaths in our society. [media] continues to sensationalize and capitalize off conflict & excitement, when our Ancestral Bodies have been needing such Deep Radical Rest for so long.

we’re all hurting, we’re all healing. we’re all just trying to be here and move through so much pain, next to all of our joy.

Our Planet is on the brink and we keep looking the other way. and people covet other people having excess, while excess quickly kills us.

but do you ever pause near a window just to witness dust mixing w/ morning light?

when was the last time you danced with a Wall?

a  R  e  yo  u   F  R  e E  ?

the first half of my life ended somewhere around the tail end of 2024. I was 37, I quit my last day job to create an Art Studio : kid˚MANDU

[M∆NDU | 만두] is the Korean word for ‘dumpling’ and now,
I make things that nourish my inner child.

peace love + light,

Nicky the Kiid˚